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Don't know want to say what now..
My friends all said that my mother dotes me..
I don't know what to say
Really....
Today I just play Com for 20+ minutes
She scolded me badly..
It hurts..no one knows that..
because I didn't "write" on my face
Then she thought that I didn't hear or didn't bother her
I was Hurts Deeply..
Who Knows..
She Even said She want to sell me to Other people
She Even said She want to Chase me Out of Her house
She Even said She Will let me lost everything I want
She Even said I'm good for nothing
She Even said She is useless
.......
What should I reply her that time?
If I reply,She would just took it as an argument
.....
I have been thinking..I know what she is not saitified
She is not saitified with my results...
She would just look at my results and say
"Not Good, Very****(smth that's will make my heart bleed)"
but she didn't know my results better than before
I'm improving my results
she just won't praise me

I'm crying just now
Words She said Bleeded My Heart...
But She didn't see I cry
and She Won't know Either..





























Nobody will see my posts
I can just write whatever I want

[G]ames In Classroom

Since the Year End exam hv finished
and all the paper were out
So after 5 days school Holidays(Hari Raya Puasa)
Should be the playing time for us ^^
Everyday we do not go to school to Study
Just playing games with friends
But some of our subject Biology,Chesmistry &Physic
still hv to continue because
the book is so thick...
Anyway most of the time we are playing with friends :)
What games Do we play?
Hehe~surely everyone thought that
senior 1 student surely play something
different than primary school
If you think like that,you are Wrong
The games we are playing everyday
is actually when we are in primary games xD
like "Sissors Paper Rock" etc...

Most of the popular games among us is
"Speaks from Heart & Risky Adventure" in chinese is
"Zhen Xin Hua ,Da Mao Xian"
I must say it is really aventures and fun and intriguing xD
At first We play "Secret Code",which is
one people hv to write a secret code and
the number is between 1-1000
you can say 700,800,etc.. whatever the number you like
but if you guess it right the Secret Code
That's means you lose and hv to choose "Speaks from Heart or Risky Adventure"
Yet two of this is hardly to choose :S
If you choose "Speaks from Heart" they maybe ask you some
really personal things or something
that ridiculous that you hardly answer
But if you Choose "Risky Adventure"? Omg..they maybe ask
you to do something that really makes you hardly do it :S
such as you hv to shout "I love You;I'm the most Prettiest In the World,etc."
However saying a "Love you"is not a difficule things for us
So like us those kind of person (Hehe..)
We surely think of something that
Everyone don't want to do it (Hehe..)

Unfortunely...I have lost twice x_x
Omg..So the First time i choose "Speaks from Heart"
and HQ who known me very much person
Ask me such a silly question -.-
"Say out Two person who you like before and they makes you
thinking of sexual desire ~ xD"
Omg -.- I think She is Crazy
Ah..What am i going to answer HeLp me!
and everyone was looking forward for my answer
Arh..If asked me who I like I maybe "Trow"
random two people out of it
But She Asked have sexual desire !! :S
So I have nothing to answer and looking them embaressly
then they change the question (I forgot what's the question)
Phew...Thank goodness I didn't answer the ques

The 2nd time i don't wanna choose "Speaks From Heart"
of course i won't choose because it is too.........
I chose "Risky Adventure" I think there won't be a good thing in their mind
I guess it right :S Help!
you know what they want me to do?
They want me to act illicit relations with CK,
seduce him,want me to say "I'm SeXy~"
OMG!!How am i going to do this kind of things?
Ok since I lost the game I hv to accept the game punishement
So...They shouted loudly and whole class watching me
Doing the Punishment ^^""
Strungglingly I went in front of him
Everyone started to Cheer "Whoa~~!!"
putting my leg beside him (Omg~~)
and said "I Sexy ~~" (Not clear because I was too anxious and..:S)
Thankgoodness They didn't want me to redo the acting
(Because they were planning "Force" me to redo it) :S
Phew..At last and Finally pass

HQ also lost a time and I was about to tease her beautifully
unfortunaly~our math teacher were there
and we can't play something really funny
so Of course she chose "Speaks From Heart"
Lok asked her (Hehe..time for her to embress xD)
"Do you have any Really Special Feeling For my Disciple?"
* he means Disciple=Mark from Singapore
Then guess what did she say?
She just say there is 99.999%...impossible special feeling for him
Some of our exchange programme students a little shock
But for me I have knew it for a long time
Yet Lok seems dosen't believe it
Of course~some of us didn't believe it
because when exchange programme they always
walk together,chatting together
and when in Singapore they even cuddle each other waist
But just a few minute
Unfortunely I didn't take the photo down
I must say What A Waste!!
and when we ask them they just said
"We are really just Good Buddy What~Just Buddy!"
Of course I believe her because I know her well
But for others I don't know what they will think about it :S
Haha~off topic :P

Anyway when we said we gave a big hug to someone
Some people who are conservatism can't accept it
But for me and some of my friends ,It just normal case
It's True When we were about to leave Singapore that time
We gave every exchange student a really Big hug
Because We all Knew that...This Is The Last Exchange programme for us
and don't know when we will meet again....
I don't know What do everyone feeling about this
But for me I really can't bear to leave everyone
I told myself don't cry that time because my tears nearly drop
but after some hugged..my tears drop down unconsiously
I don't want to let everyone knows
But Everyone saw my tears
I try to control myself but it was too late
My eyes were red and tears keep dropping down
and there were no tissue :S
"It's no use to crying like this"
"No matter how miss them,can't cry like this"
some of us saying like this ~
But this matter is already past two month
I still remember the scenery clearly when reached custom that time

Hey I think I have wrote something out of topic
wrote those thing unconsiously
Please~everyone don't mind it :)
However It's true I really miss everyone :P
Guess I miss who very much xD
answer is apperantly in the post :P

{A}fter [E]xam/[B]oring [T]hings

So well result are all out and
i hv nothing to say about it.........
for get about it :S
anyway now here is Hari Raya Puasa
so we will be holiday sfor 5 days
till wednesday,thursday hv to go to school
I fell a little boring..
no because nothing to do so what~:S

arh..and i hv played Maple Story
not bad but..
everytime i play my mum will surely scold me badly
so i think maybe i hv to stop later
nvm for my lever i'm not really like to play it
saying some boring things =.=

I hv watched animation by Clamp
"You want to Gain Something but
you must pay the PRICE"
I believe that thing...

my friend..tell me that his math only got B3
and ask me how is my math...
(he knows that my math usually.....)
that time if anyone asked my math score
i would weep...in front of them..
(my results less than B3...)
so i quickly told him my results or...
my tears will surely drop down..
Later..at the tuition
i just knew that actually he got A1...
The fact is..He just wanted me happy
but...i can't happy just gave a bitter smile
...........
(Most of it my subject are B3
and someless than B3..)
Bad results like this who will Happy about it?
Just hv to blame myself that i'm not hard working enough
....and i'm not worth to ask my parent anything..

I'm saying Boring thing because I'm really boring

maybe I hv to take the time to revise
and my piano too
I hate screw..but i always got.....
.....I'm good for nothing...
A Rotten apple.....

and I nearly Give up Myself.....

Attention!
if anyone send you this
is that u on that photo
http://hotgirls.ho.funpic.org/pictures.php?photo656.jpg
please don't open it or you will get virus!!
thankgoodness one of my friend told me
so I didn't get Virus :)

So well,Exam is finished
and results are out too..............
and...my results are bad....
really sad..and I think maybe will lost confidence next time...
I think I really different with everyone...
my friends..all can just study some
and play or what
but I also study what...same as them..
still can't get good results....
I feel that very strange and weird...
study as same as them...
but all their results better than me....
I don't know what to say...
always like this one..never get good results...
I'm very disappoint of myself...
or maybe not hardworking enough...
different with others...
They can just leave it there and don't study or what...
........
don't know....how to say about this...
My results are bad even I study hard


.....disppoint of myself..and can't understand myself...
or maybe I'm born LIke this...the fate maybe just can't change..


Finally the exam over...
I think I can watch animation that I like
-Holic (haven't finished)
-The Hell Girl (seems some boring of it~)
-Suzuka(actually i hv finished it but still want to watch)
and also can go out with others
and play computer
yet still limited by my mum -.-

(of course..I don't adre to let my mum see my results either
However she knows that my results are not bad..so...
and I'm not worth to ask my mum for that...)
*sigh*...I just only can blame myself....
......

My piano lesson also a little...no..
Very serious..
My teacher scolded me....badly T.T
*sigh*and something had happen badly
My teacher didn't sign me up for next year Pratical Exam..
T.T Grade 6...That's mean I can't go for exam next year..
My fault..ok my fault....
I didn't pratice hard
That day teacher ask me stare me seriously..
......
I don't know want to answer what
Well..my teacher said a student like me...
will be already kick out of the class..
but she didn't chase me out

I still got hope..but..maybe..only...

I hv thought it long ago....
maybe I'm really a rotten apple...
no matter how I work hard....
my results..all my results won't get better..
maybe I'm worse than everybody
I'm worse than everyone...
and...I'm not WORTH to ask everyone help me or comfort me..
That's makes me more....sad...depress...

[U]nknow [T]hings

I thought that i hv many exp about many things..
yet..there is many thing we can't predicate...
I believe in everyone easily...
but I don't know ..they don't even tell me a things..
sometimes just ask me for help
Humph...
I can't Image that All People i known here is relly like that
There is many things I don't know about those people
The fact is...I Don'tknow what they want to do
what next step They want to do..
maybe next minutes become your foe
and maybe next minutes become your friend..
Werid people..Maybe I'm weird?
Humph..I don't know..
I just know that...
......

There are many things still unknow..
Thought that this place won't be so much complicated things
NO,I'm wrong...
Everyone is hidding Everythings from me..
What do you feel if you know Everyone is like that?
......
and what use is helping people?
The Fact..They are Using You..
Not really want to be friend with you...
I'm Using people also?
Ya i Admit...but you all were using and so I do the same
Really don't know what those people think about...

I just want to be good with someone who is everyone hate
then because i'm good with that person
then everyone don't like me..Hey..is that called Friend?
That person seems pity,I pity then good with it
yet..What do I meet?
-Everyone dislike me because of being good with that friend
-I pity that person and good with it,yet that person
TreAt Me BadLy!
I don't know,i just want to help that person yet it do this to me ~
is it insane?unhappy of what?
If everone is unhappy with you
they go out won't ask you to go and hidding from you...

I still don't know yet...I learn something again
Why Sould You Care About Others?
Why should You Care About Their Feeling?
If You Care About,Finally What do You get?
The Best Things Is Do Your Own Things..

That's why I really dislike those people
That's why I dislike This place..
That's why I silence all the time..
That's why I don't like to Chat with those people
Tha's why I don't go out
That's why I want to go Far Away..
That's why I like to chat with all my friends who is in Sg

Haha~This is called Unknow Things :P
The smallest post i ever had xD

_[C]opy[C]ats_

Our computer Homework....
Dreamweaver,making a website
there must be many HTML inside of it..
Finally Done...Since it started on 5.9.06..
It seems like a troublesome to everyone
(The fact is that is really a troublesome)
Of course...
Got some people who was doing the work by OWN
Got some people who was CopYing HTML+websites Here and There
People who did by own using a lot of time
People who did by copying here and there use only a few hours
Unfortunely...
The One who sacrifice more time
People who done the Dreamweaver by their Own
Their website ARE NOT BETTER THAN THOSE COPYCAT!
If compare them with actual strength
Of course the One who did by themself won
But...
Their Website Is Not Better Than CoPyCats!
What Should they do?
Tell Teachers?Scold Them?
Ask them How To do?
They would just reply
"Of course Using Java Script,Do It Your Own!"
"Use Your Brain!"
There is nothing they can do with those copycat!
No altenaltive at all...
CopyCats's Marks surely higher than Those actual strength people!
See How Unfair Of it!

There is no use if you tell your friend about this
They will just reply
"You can also Copy what,why should you do it your own?"
"Then you just learn them lor."
"You also copy those picture what,That's not call copy?"
"Use your Brain lar!Those Copycats More INTELLIGENT than you!"
....
What will you say?
Saitified those answer?Angry?
.....

After You Read This Posts
You Learn "Something"
Do a "CopyCat" not an Actual Strength Person!

+[S]hort [S]tory+

{A Short Story}
There was a boy and a girl,they just original friend.
They Did not meet for months.
Finally there was a big party,the girl went there with her good friend.
Her good Friend and the boy known since they were primary school.
They met in the party.
The girl was very delighted to see the boy.
After taking a photo,the girl asked the boy to join her group and walk around.
But the girl's group don't have any boy,so the boy very ____that time.
He was alone and don't know want to go where.
The girl was about to ask the boy come along vice versa with her Only.
But her good friend had asked him already.
At the first,the girl thought that they were just talking nonsense.
But the boy went vice versa with her good friend!
That was a fact!
The girl had a little upset and wanted to go home.
(maybe too upset)
That time The girl apart with her group
(That's because she can't find her friends!,there were too many people!)
The girl called her father to fetch her and message her friend that
she was feeling unwell and had to go home.
That was an Unhappy party for her.
*Beep*The boy message and asked her what had happen.
Of course the girl just told him she was hurt somewhere.
The boy keep message her asked where did she hurt.
She didn't told him and just told him to guess it.
The boy keep asking her and said
"If I don't care about you,whom do i care?"
He still Cant guess out where did she hurt.
Maybe he was too slow,so she called him "Dump"
The girl felt a little happy,
but she knew that he has many friends and
what if he said the same things to others?
espeacilly...her good firend.
The girl..of course a little upset with her good friend.
She knew after the party they hardly meet each other.
they can just only messaging...
That won't get close their relationship......
......

Question
1)Where did the girl hurt?
2)Do her good friend like the boy?
3)What's the boy feeling to the girl?
4)Can messages help them more closer?
.....
If can,Please help me answer those question!
write in Tagborad or your blog!


Arh....anyway I'm feeling very tired these days..
and have some friends problem too...
*sigh*What should i care...
Of course...
Exam...I should care about exam
now I'm still blur about every things...
HeLp...